As I lay myself down to sleep tonight...

I want to thank the Lord for keeping me here 3 years ago.  On July 31, 2012, I literally thought I was going to die, especially when the nurses and doctors were keeping me in the dark bc even they didn't know what to tell me (other than the on-call ER doc accusing me of overdosing on drugs).  Anyway, I cried and prayed every single day that I was in that hospital that God wouldn't take me away before seeing my kids grow up.  I don't think of it as being selfish, I knew that either way, it was His choice. I had written letters to David and the kids, telling them how much I loved them, and how proud I was of them.  I didn't let the kids know how worried I was.  They were worried enough just knowing that their mama was in the hospital.  I've had some scares since surgery, but I'm working on calming my nerves.

I try not to take my life for granted; I try to be happy and grateful for my life every day.   I hope that I always remember to do that.  

So goodnight, sleep tight, and thank God for everything!

There's really nothing to update, but

I hate neglecting my blog.  School is about to start again for the kiddos, so pretty soon, life will be even more hectic.  Right now, I'm the only one with a schedule to keep.  Rianna has a sports physical on Thurs, and the kids have to get their hearts checked out soon, so I hope and pray that I will have good news from their appts.

I will say that every morning here lately, I wake up to a sore chest, only on the left side.  Dr. Lane said that I would be sore for years, but I don't think she meant there.  I put in a call to her office about the kids' Echos, so when I hear back from them, I'll also ask if that is normal.

I'll update whenever I find out anything.

A quick post...

I went to Dr. Lane the other day for my follow-up, and got pretty good news.  She reviewed my last Echo and said that everything looked ok.  She can definitely see the regurgitation, but she can't hear it.  The regurgitation hasn't progressed, so that is good.  There's no time table yet for future surgery, so yay.  My next appointment is in Oct, when I go back for my Echo, and this time, it'll be a stress one so she can try to hear the regurgitation.  Also, I'll have blood work a few weeks prior so that she can review that.  She also wants that stress Echo because she says my heart rate is still low.  It always has been, or at least, since I've been aware of my condition.

I explained my concern for the kids' hearts, and she is going to see them this summer.  She wants each of them to have an Echo so she can rule out heart issues for them.  So please pray that they get good results!

That's about all I have for now.  I'll update with anything else later...

It's been forever...

Baby Avery went to be with Jesus on Jan 3rd.  It's been a very sad time for my family, but their faith really helps ease the pain.  I don't know how anyone ever gets over losing a child-as a matter of fact, I'm sure one never does.  

I've got my nails done (Jamberry-style) for Valentine's/Go Red Day/Month/etc.  Go Red Day is tomorrow, and since I'll be working and not wearing red clothes, the nails and my red dress pin will be my red...the heart walk is on Mar 7th, and so is the Heart and Sole walk.  I'm going to do the Heart and Sole, I think, for Avery and all the other little heart patients.  That's the plan.  Also, the kids are participating in Jump Rope for Heart.  They're collecting donations and jumping in memory of Avery.

Anyway, that's all I've got tonight.  I have an appt with my cardiologist on Feb 23rd, so I'll update then.  Night...